Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I'm just trying to help

It has been bothering me for the past 10 years and there is really nothing I can do about it. I just sit by and wait...and wait...and wait. I used to tell myself that I wouldn't be in this situation if I'd just kept my word, "I'm not going to...until you...". Before I knew it, I was doing the very thing that I said I wouldn't do with out my request being fullfilled. I had accepted it and moved on hoping that the situation would get resolved but I never would have thought 10 years later I would still be making the same request.
It's in my blood. I feel like I have to do something about it...but what really? I can make phone calls, but what would I say? Would I make the situation worse? I've done all that I know to do. I've said all that I know to say. So why can't I just leave it at that? I keep telling myself that it really doesn't involve me...atleast not directly. But it involves people that I love and care about. Maybe I'm just trying to help someone that doesn't want to be helped...or just doesn't want my help. That's it! Lesson learned. I can't helped those that aren't willing to helped to help themselves.
Now I'll just go back to doing one of the hardest things for me to do. Wait...and wait...and wait...

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Like you said you can't help those that aren't willing to help themselves.

Unknown said...

Help can be given freely but only works if it is accepted unconditionally.